Interview: Teresa Santos

Today we’re joined by Teresa Santos.  Teresa is an amateur writer and photographer.  She’s a very versatile photographer and the images she sent along are absolutely lovely.  Her writing isn’t public yet, but if her photography is anything to go by, this is an artist who has an incredibly bright future ahead of her.  My thanks to her for taking part in this interview.

Cosplay photos
Cosplay photos

WORK

Please, tell us about your art.

I’m an amateur writer and photographer, two types of art I have dabbled in for years but never quite took to the next level. Fingers crossed that’ll change soon! In terms of writing, I write mostly short fantasy stories and have been slowly writing two YA novels, one fantasy, one contemporary.

As for photography, I do a little bit of everything: landscape, wildlife, urban, portrait – when I manage to go to a con or a medieval fair -, experimental, and travel photography. It all depends on where I go and what happens there that captures my eye.

What inspires you?

Nature, first and foremost. I’m a biologist by trade, so animals and the environment always seem to sneak into whatever I do. As do fairytales and everything magic. It may sound like a contradiction, but I’ve found that if there is a contrast between magic and science, there are also points where the two meet. Both the contrast and the blur, and the feelings they evoke, pique my interest. Current affairs and people’s perception also play a huge part in everything I make, especially LGBTQ+ issues and politics.

But nothing at all would come of it, if it wasn’t for the work of greater artists, whom I shan’t name because there are so many of them I’m bound to forget some and then chastise myself for it. Let’s just say it’s a combination of books, music (and musicals), films, and Flickr/DeviantArt artists.

Dwarf Mongoose I
Dwarf Mongoose I

What got you interested in your field?  Have you always wanted to be an artist?

I’m not quite sure, to be honest. I have liked writing and photography ever since I was a child. At the age of nine, I would make little illustrated books in the winter, and cut my family’s heads in a group photo in the summer. Even when my notebooks were full and my parents had hold of the camera, I’d be begging for more paper and a camera of my own so I could capture everything. At fourteen, I knew that the only way to be happy was to pursue science without letting go of art. At nineteen, I’d be binge reading a series instead of studying for exams and taking my camera to every field trip. Now, I use every free moment I can to immerse myself in colour and storytelling. Art was always part of me, I suppose. I just never learned how to turn it into a “job”.

Do you have any kind of special or unique signature, symbol, or feature you include in our work that you’d be willing to reveal?

Not that I’m aware of. However, some friends have told me I have the tendency to heighten colours and contrasts, and use a lot of greens and browns (is that the influence of Biology again?) in my photography. Looking at it, it is probably a very good point.

What advice would you give young aspiring artists?

Take your tools of the trade everywhere, be it a camera or a notebook (unless it’s very heavy, in which case, don’t or you’ll seriously damage your back and shoulders – nobody ever warns you about that!). Live life with wide eyes and pay attention. When you feel like giving up, take a walk. You never know what might happen. Sometimes the simple blowing of a leaf or the angle of the light can spark a brand new idea or breathe life into an old one.

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Owl

ASEXUALITY

Where on the spectrum do you identify?

I identify as aromantic asexual.

Have you encountered any kind of ace prejudice or ignorance in your field?  If so, how do you handle it?

All writers I communicate with are either 100% fine with LGBTQ+ or part of the community themselves, so I never spotted much prejudice there. As for the photography crew, it’s mostly composed of fellow biologists who feel such wonder about the world that they mostly don’t do or say anything horrible about asexuality. If anything, they ask me what it’s like, if there is any physiological or epigenetic explanation of it, and so on. It’s all very curiosity based.

I did say mostly though. I’ve had two instances where the reaction was not exactly positive, but not from photographers. They were two, at the time, fellow biology undergraduates. The first, who was convinced I was a lesbian because I had never had a boyfriend whilst everyone else in my year got around, was astonished at my explanation of asexuality. When he recovered from the shock, he proclaimed the now famous “So you’re an amoeba. Are you going to sprout an extra arm soon?” and laughed awkwardly. I suppose he acted like that because the concept was very new to him and he didn’t know how to react to someone “outing” themselves, especially in a way he did not expect.

The second case (or first really, if we’re doing this timewise) happened shortly after I began identifying myself as an aro ace. At the time, I was really lost on what to do. Should I out myself? Should I keep quiet? Did people in my country even know about asexuality?

So who did I decide to turn to? Why, the only publicly gay man in my course. The conversation barely lasted longer than a minute. After I told him I was ace and explained it to him, he turned to me and said, “Come back to me in ten years and tell me that again.” I insisted I knew what I was saying. “In ten years, tell me again,” he repeated.

Other than that, I’ve just had the usual “oh you haven’t met the right man yet” or “you’re too young, there’s time” or “I used to think the same way but I changed my mind” from acquaintances and family members, but they’re neither in my fields, nor do they know I identify as ace. But again, I doubt they’ve ever even heard of asexuality.

Plants and Big Ben
Plants and Big Ben

What’s the most common misconception about asexuality that you’ve encountered?

From my personal experiences, that it doesn’t exist. Although I’ve scarcely ever put a name to it when speaking of how natural it was for people to feel little or no sexual attraction, people’s reactions are nearly always the same. They shake their heads, they laugh, they say that “no, everyone wants to have sex with someone. That’s what makes us human”, or they suggest that such people have a medical problem and should go to the doctor quickly. Ah, erasure, you clinging fiend!

What advice would you give to any asexual individuals out there who might be struggling with their orientation?

Don’t force yourself into the shoes of someone you’re not. You don’t owe anybody sex, romance, children or anything else. Your body is your body. As is everything it contains, spirit, mind and organs. You don’t owe anyone anything, no matter what they say. Even though it’s hard, even if you just want to fit in, it’s alright to be different. Everyone is different from everyone, no matter what people say. Find out what you want for the moment and stick to it. If it changes in the future, well, that’s part of character development. If it doesn’t, it’s part of it too. Know your limits and wishes, and embrace them. And if you can, if you have the luck of living near other asexuals, go meet them. If you don’t, the internet is a wonderful place for meeting them, be it on Twitter, Tumblr, or even Facebook. Go ahead, talk to other aces or just watch them from afar. Understand two fundamental truths:
You’re not alone.
You’re not broken.

Finally, where can people find out more about your work?

To access my writing, you would have to find seven keys – one in each continent -, to open a chest buried in the pit of a sleeping volcano in a remote island, guarded by a six headed dragon. Inside, you would see a computer. But to access it, you would have to swim to the bottom of the ocean and find the stone under which the password is written. Beware, there are hidden mermaids and a mighty kraken awaiting anyone who comes near.

My photography, however, is much easier to find. Just go to my Flickr: https://www.flickr.com/photos/tessblack/ or to my blog https://tessellatedtales.wordpress.com/ that also features book reviews and other ramblings. Hope to see you there!

Sea of Clouds V
Sea of Clouds V

Thank you so much, Teresa, for participating in this interview and this project.  It’s very much appreciated.

Interview: EJ Oakley

Today we’re joined by EJ Oakley.  EJ is another remarkably talented and remarkably versatile artist.  They do just about everything, from painting and drawing to music to filmmaking.  My thanks to them for taking the time to participate in this interview.

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WORK

Please, tell us about your art.

I dabble in a lot of different types of visual art. I used to solely draw manga but I branched out from that and changed my style a lot when I started taking Visual Arts as a serious school subject. Now I do anything and everything from painting canvases to digital art, and I still find time for the occasional sketch or two.

Personally I love making glitch art and collages. I’m probably going to sound really pretentious but I really like how you can make something beautiful out of an error, or out of fragmented pieces of things that could come from many different places. I also like drawing with charcoal because I was born messy.

I also make short films documenting the times when I go out and do interesting things, which is not very often because I’m quite boring. I like filming things that people normally just pass by or don’t really appreciate, because it’s “trash” or it’s something that they’re so used to passing through every day, like a bus stop or tube station.

On the side; I’m the bassist and co-frontman in a band called Drop Bear. We don’t have anything up yet but I’m really excited for when we start recording.

What inspires you?

Other people. We have life drawing classes at school and I always get really excited whenever I find out we’re going to have a session because the human figure really fascinates me. It’s really interesting to see the body as how we all know it and then capture it and represent it on paper as something else, something different.

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What got you interested in your field?  Have you always wanted to be an artist?

I did sort of always want to do something related to art. I used to really want to be a comic book artist. That was my burning desire throughout my childhood until I was about fifteen when I then realised I probably wasn’t good enough. Now I want to be a graphic designer, which is probably as much of a long shot, but hey, kids can dream…

In terms of my current “field” (if one could call it that) I guess I really got interested in it when I realised that people could actually make money doing what they liked, and I always liked the idea of representing thoughts and concepts in a visual, graphical way. Whether it involves drawing it out or chopping up a couple of pictures and pasting them together on Photoshop. In my current school and the school I was previously at I was (and am) head layout designer for several magazines in circulation around the school, and it’s a fantastic job.

Do you have any kind of special or unique signature, symbol, or feature you include in our work that you’d be willing to reveal?

I work with a lot of classical figures and busts. The sculpture sections at the British Museum and the V&A are two of my favourite places; you’ll probably find me there most weekends I’m free actually. I like contrasting these really pure, smooth images of human beings against glitches and errors and static, because that’s what life is really like; nobody’s that perfect in real life.

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What advice would you give young aspiring artists?

Don’t do what I do, which is basically look down at your work and think, “Oh, great, that’s shit, I’m never making art again.” (I have to stop myself from doing this and give myself the following pep talk on regular occasions.) Art is a process and a journey, not a fixed thing. Make art regularly and don’t worry about consistency, you could produce a couple of sketches or a massive painting, as long as you’re keeping yourself moving down the path and on this journey.

You’ll constantly be improving all the time as you practice. Your style may change. You may change as a person and start to draw different things, or get better and worse at different mediums. It doesn’t matter. People change. Just keep going and keep moving and you’ll be all the better for it.

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ASEXUALITY

Where on the spectrum do you identify?

I am biromantic; I (sometimes) experience sexual attraction towards those who identify as male but only experience romantic attraction towards those who identify as female. I’m not even sure if I’m describing this right.

Have you encountered any kind of ace prejudice or ignorance in your field?  If so, how do you handle it?

A lot of people I’m friends with just do not know what asexuality is. Either they’re unaware it exists or they think it’s something other than it actually is. (I once heard someone say that they thought asexuals hated children. Although I do dislike small, loud children; I’m very sure this is not true of all asexuals.) If I try and explain it to them things generally work out, though. I’ve never been bullied or been the butt of discrimination because of my sexuality, thankfully.

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What’s the most common misconception about asexuality that you’ve encountered?

Whenever I mention asexuality to someone, a response I get a lot is, “what, like plants?” Several people have also asked me if asexual people reproduce by splitting themselves into two. This is a real thing.

What advice would you give to any asexual individuals out there who might be struggling with their orientation?

If you’re unsure why you feel a certain way, don’t worry. You unconsciously know what you want and what’s best for yourself, even if you can’t or won’t consciously admit it. Go with what you feel, and don’t try to change yourself, because that will make you feel even worse. And if you don’t know where you fit on the spectrum, it’s okay. You don’t even have to try and label yourself, or feel uncomfortable if you don’t fully fit under one umbrella or another. You won’t ever be asked to sit down and describe your sexuality in three words or less. That doesn’t happen. Really, it doesn’t.

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Finally, where can people find out more about your work?

My work is scattered all over the Internet:

My “official” art portfolio (for bidniss only aaiiight?) is at http://waterjump.tumblr.com

My art/personal Instagram (for sketches and small stuff, this is updated more often than the portfolio) is at http://instagram.com/doyjivision

My Instagram for photography is at http://instagram.com/totalstrifeforever

I have a YouTube account for films at https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCF4oDxHbDSHd68zAkXDRcbA

And I also have a YouTube account for covers of songs I like at https://www.youtube.com/user/snowpatrolling

I have a Bandcamp for the previous band I was in (which is now broken up but you’re still welcome to enjoy the tunes) which is at http://thefountainkings.bandcamp.com

And I have a mostly abandoned Wattpad account (which I might revive soon, but if you’d like to read the half-finished story on there that would be brill) at http://wattpad.com/user/hallidays

If you want to follow my main (music-oriented and sometimes personally-oriented too) blog you can find me at http://roryloveless.tumblr.com

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Thank you so much, EJ, for taking the time to participate in this interview and this project.  It’s very much appreciated.

Interview: L. J. Engelmeier

Today we’re joined by L.J. Engelmeier.  L.J. is a jack-of-all-trades kind of artist. She writes (novels and short stories, epic fantasy/horror/supernatural romance).  She’s also an amateur photographer, who has a very good eye as you’ll soon see.  My thanks to her for taking the time to participate in this interview.

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WORK

Please, tell us about your art.

My motto has always been “jack of all trades; master of none,” so I’ve dabbled in a little of everything: photography, writing, theatre, photomanipulation, writing music, poetry, drawing, etc. But I suppose I’d rather talk about my photography and writing. I was a photojournalist in high school, so I’ve taken pictures of nature, people, my nephew, animals, and more. I’m an amateur, but I love it—and I have gotten four of my photographs published in my university’s literary magazine.

My writing, however, is nearest and dearest to my heart. I’m currently working toward my Bachelor of Arts in Creative Writing (soon to be followed by my Master of Fine Arts), so almost all of my focus is on that field of art. I write short stories and novels. My short stories are typically deep, dark, disturbing horror—which I write under a different pen name. I’m hoping to send some off for publication to larger lit magazines soon—while my novels focus on a bit of everything. I’ve got fantasy, political romance, supernatural, zombies, you name it. I have several in the works.

About 90% of my writing includes LGBTQ+ main characters without it being the focus of the novel. I like to portray them as people like everyone else. I’ve written quite a few gays and lesbians, one homoromantic asexual, and even a transgender character. I’m trying to branch out into characters of colour, especially in my fantasy novels because you don’t often see them there. Most of my short stories are women-centric Midwestern horrors, and the giant fantasy novel I’m writing right now is definitely led by strong females (though I love to keep a balance of men/women). I love for my works to have bigger implications, however. One fantasy novel deals with racism and discrimination amidst a fight with the gods, the political romance has to do with real life soulmates and draws allusions to the fight for gay marriage, and the big fantasy novel I’m working on deals with learning to grow as a person, accepting loss, and building family while trying to save the universe.

Enough about that, though. I’m rambling.

What inspires you?

Two things inspire me, really, and the first is going to sound horrible, I know. Popular bad writing actually inspires me to write. Rather than being intimidated by good writing, in bad writing I see all the things that can be fixed and realize that it’s completely within my skill range to be able to rearrange those things into a proper story. It’s kind of a confidence booster for me because I’m so easily overwhelmed.

The other thing is general randomness. I’ve been inspired by a photo I’ve seen, a tattoo, lyrics to a song, a split second commercial, overheard dialogue, dreams, words/phrases that get stuck in my head out of the blue, anything.

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What got you interested in your field?  Have you always wanted to be an artist?

I grew up drawing. That was my passion. But I also grew up telling stories. It was my favourite pastime as a kid to sit around and make believe—to create lives. I didn’t actually start writing until I was a freshman in high school, when I saw my best friends writing. Something just clicked for me, and I realized the vast stories in my head could be shared with others. Since then, I’ve been a goner.

Do you have any kind of special or unique signature, symbol, or feature you include in our work that you’d be willing to reveal?

Other than what I’ve mentioned before with the LGBTQ+, women, and people of colour, not particularly. There was a time when I first started writing that all of my female main characters’ first names started with A. Perhaps the biggest signature that I’ve got is something I use in my fantasy and supernatural works. I’ve created a language, and I know it appears in at least two of my novels and one of my short stories.

Kostet odai ankh leifhs, fimau’a.

What advice would you give young aspiring artists?

My advice is never to compare yourself. Ever. I’ve fallen into the bad habit of doing it, and it either intimidates me or it makes me feel better at the expense of others. No matter who you are, what you create, the world is full of individuals, and someone out there is going to like what you’ve made—someone is going to like you. It isn’t about being good or bad. It’s about being yourself and letting the world accept you for that.

And don’t ever settle for “good enough.” Always push yourself to try something new. Always push yourself to discover new parts of yourself. Don’t worry about failure. There’s always going to be a little bit of failure on the way to success. You fall a lot before you learn to walk. You just have to keep getting up. Own who you are.

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ASEXUALITY

Where on the spectrum do you identify?

I identify as a biromantic asexual with grey-akoiromantic tendencies.

Have you encountered any kind of ace prejudice or ignorance in your field?  If so, how do you handle it?

In my field, not particularly. I’m openly asexual, but it’s not as if I scream it to the world before I hand over a manuscript. If there comes a day I do experience it, I plan to let it go in one ear and out the other. I’m a person. My asexuality does not affect my right to be treated as such.

What’s the most common misconception about asexuality that you’ve encountered?

I’ve faced two misconceptions, and both hurt equally. I’ve gotten really positive feedback. I’ve been told, “So you’re like, in love with love? That’s great. Everyone should be like you.” But I’ve also been asked, “Have you been to a doctor?” Or even at the doctor’s office, “You’ve…never been sexually active?” said with a very worried tone. Asexuality is a valid orientation, and it worries be a bit that people think it’s medical, or something “wrong.”

The other misconception, about as common as the first, is the assumption as asexual = not interested in people. I’ve been swept under the rug like that. “Are you bisexual? Wait, you’re asexual. You aren’t interested in people.” I have a romantic orientation. Asexual doesn’t mean alone. And on that note, I’ve been asked, “If you don’t have sex with someone you love, aren’t they just like a friend or a family member?” To which, I invite people to assess, taking sex off the table, if you really feel the same way about your significant other and your father. Attraction is multifaceted.

What advice would you give to any asexual individuals out there who might be struggling with their orientation?

The biggest things are not to push yourself, not to confine yourself, and not to punish yourself. Don’t rush it. It took me years to figure myself out, and my label still changes the more I learn about identities and myself. Don’t think a label has to stick. They can change as you grow. And don’t ever beat yourself up about who you are. For the longest time, I thought there was something wrong with me and that I was going to be alone forever because something in me was broken. I’m just different.

And don’t ever let anyone tell you who are you. Only you get to decide that.

Finally, where can people find out more about your work?

Unfortunately, I’m not published anywhere online. I’m sure if you stalk me you can find two- to three-year-old drafts of the stories I’m working on, but if you’re interested in anything I write or just generally have any questions, shoot me an email at ljengelmeier@outlook.com. (I’d also like to hear a bit about people’s experiences—with their sexualities, genders, or races—so that I can branch out with new types of characters that are truer to form.)

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Thank you, L.J., for participating in this interview and project.  It’s very much appreciated.